Mr Milo,
Oh boy, has it been a crazy month or what! You have definitely brought a whole lot of craziness into this family with all of your medical issues. But, with that craziness comes an insane amount of love. It's really quite amazing how fast and how deeply our love for you has grown in such a short amount of time. Including cooper - he can't keep his hands off of you and kisses you at every chance he gets!
You spent almost 2 1/2 of the last 4 weeks in the hospital, and they weren't fun for any of us. You had lots of testing done, you struggled with keeping your food down, learned how to eat from a bottle, and you stole the heart of every doctor and nurse that worked with you. Every single time a new doctor/nurse would see you they would comment on how incredibly cute you were!
You developed quite a bond with several of your nurses and the day you turned 1 month old one of your very favorite nurses, kasey, came to visit you. You and kasey spent a lot of time together while you were in the hospital. She spent countless hours holding you, feeding you, singing to you, and being there for you when I couldn't be. Kasey has a special place in our hearts forever and I know you're going to grow up to love her just as much as we do.
You're not the easiest baby, milo. But it's not your fault. You are just plain old sad most of the time. I know that you're in pain - but I don't know how to help you. You've got the saddest cry I've ever heard - it's not just a fussy baby cry - it's definitely a painful cry. But, I'm not totally sure what's causing your pain in the first place. You throw up most of what you eat and you scream bloody murder every time. We've tried different formulas, bottles, and feeding positions to try and help you, but to no avail. We just started you on some antacid medicine, so hopefully that will help soon.
Honestly, I think the bump on your back is what's causing your pain. The doctors aren't sure if it is or not, but mama knows best. I truly believe that once we figure out what's going on with that bump then we will know how to help you. Once you turn 2 months old we can get an MRI done and have some answers. I don't want you to grow up too fast, but I want you to hurry up and be 2 months old so that we can get that test done and get you feeling better!
Even though you're really sad most of the time, you are still such a sweetheart. Cuddling and walking around together usually help calm you down, so we take a lot of walks around the neighborhood when you're upset. I treasure those moments together where it's just me and you and sometimes we're both in tears. They're hard moments, but precious moments.
Milo, you're a fighter and I love you more than you'll ever be able to understand. I feel so blessed to be your mother!
Love, Mom
