Two Month Letter

Milo love,

Well buddy you are going to be getting your MRI soon.  We're a little worried about it but I know you'll do just fine.  We had the MRI scheduled and had emotionally prepared ourselves for everything and then we got a call the night before saying that they couldn't do the test because you had had RSV so recently.  RSV is a pretty nasty virus that settles deep in the lungs and they were afraid that you wouldn't handle the anesthesia very well if your lungs were still compromised.  We were all super disappointed but wanted to do the best thing for you. Your MRI is now scheduled for next week.

You really do try to be a happy boy, but it's clear that something is bothering you.  Even when you're not crying your eyebrows are always furrowed and your super tense.  You arch your back all the time and throw your head back.  It's the saddest thing, and it breaks my heart that I can't do anything to take away your pain.  I feel like as your mother I should be able to comfort you and make you feel better, and the fact that I can't makes me feel inadequate.  I wish so badly that I could take your pain away.  Given the fact that you're in a constant state of pain it's surprising that we've gotten you to smile at all! You didn't smile for quite some time, but just recently you starting smiling just a little bit here and there.  One of the first people to get you to smile was your grandpa Jolley. Everyone calls him pop pop...that nickname will grow on you. You really love him and I love watching you two together.

Your favorite place to be is in your bouncer up in the bay window.  You don't handle just hanging out very well - except when you're in the window.  It's strange really, because if I put the bouncer on the floor of the living room or in our room you just scream and scream.  But if I put it back up in the window you just stare out the window and enjoy a few minutes of quiet time.  It's quite sweet.  Every now and then I'll put cooper up there with you and the two of you just have a grand old time.

Your brother loves you so much.  Cooper loves to do tummy time with you, he gets right down at your level and stares you in the eye.  He walks circles around you and gives you so many kisses and hugs that I have to stop him from loving on you too hard.  He's going to be such a big brother to you and I can't wait for the both of you to be old enough to play together.

I can't believe that you're already 2 months old! I feel like you were just born yesterday - you are the most amazing little boy.

Love you to the moon and back...

Mom